“Serendipity. Look for something. Find something else, and realize that what you’ve found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.”  – Lawrence Block

i am a huge believer in things happening for a reason, even the littlest things.  the strangest set of events led to me meeting one of the most spectacular women in my life.  i do believe that everyone that i come across in life has an impact on who i am and on who i become.

someone i went to college with has been missing since June 17th, last seen in Virginia Beach actually.  we got to know each other some in school, lost touch after graduation and were facebook acquaintances.  he is a teacher, a writer.  he clearly impacted all of his students, his friends and his family.  his disappearance is suspected to be due to his contract not being renewed for next year.  i definitely can relate to feeling lost due to a life-altering event like that.  i have wanted to walk away from an old life before and start anew with no one knowing my name.  i am very lucky that i have had people to pull me away from that edge.  i have faith that with the number of friends and loved ones that are on the lookout for him that he will be found.  it has served as a reminder to me that you will truly never know how you can impact the life of another.

life can change in an instant. ten years ago, i was engaged to be married.  i wore a ring on my finger for almost eight years of my life.  at the time, it was the right answer.  i thought it was the right person.  now i know that it was the best thing that never happened to me.  i think we would have both been miserable.  i think she is happy now.  i do not talk to her, not sure i ever will.  i finally had the cry i needed about her, the last cry. and i realized that there is no looking back.  all moments in my journey have led me to the happiness that is my today.  i did not go through the last two years of pain and growth in order to risk losing the goodness that is staring me in the face with the brightest blue eyes i have ever seen. i keep looking around and waiting for someone to wake me up from this dream.  i refuse to be afraid to take the risk of loving someone with my whole heart.  and the best part is that i met her at a wedding.  this truly has been the year of change.

new friends. new experiences. new place. new love.

epic win.

 

 

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